Hey real people!!! Would u pls read this carefully& advise me what 2 do?

I鈥檓 an Indian 23 male. Presently working as an office boy in Abu Dhabi, UAE. As everybody I too had a lot of expectation about my life. I was a very good boy in my school days. I could pass my SSLC (10鈥橳h) exam in a first class mark. But by many a reason I couldn鈥檛 perform in my +2 (12鈥橳h) class. After my +2 I had a 2 to 3year鈥檚 break in my education. During that period I went in 2 an institute where I could learn Photography & Photoshop. Though I went 2 learn Photography I seemed 2 have interested in Photoshop. This is my problem (irresolute mind) that I would like 2 discuss with U. But by that I could be an accomplished Photo designer with short cut keys (a good speed). I don鈥檛 know what I lacked 2 not continue in the field. Then for a while I joined in an institute 2 learn X-Ray welding. Though I finished the course I didn鈥檛 even asked for my certificate by the reason some one told me that I would not be able 2 get a related job in Gulf countries with out a minimum experience of 5 to 10 years. I didn鈥檛 even enquire whether it was true or not. This is my problem (irresolute mind) that I would like 2 discuss with U.
Within this time my mind longed too much 2 get higher education. Then after 3 years I went in 2 my +2 school 2 buy my Transfer certificate & related papers!! I started 2 study again for BA English Degree course. I wrote my 1鈥檚t year exam well & yet the result published. Soon I wrote the exam I saw the advertisement that my company (supplying office boys) published in a news paper. By my lack of looking before leap I fell in their sub contracting trap 2 a very small salary. Now I understand something that caused me 2 fail in my life ambitions. But yet I couldn鈥檛 get a clear picture. This is my problem (irresolute mind) that I would like 2 discuss with U.
But U can鈥檛 blame me for all this completely. Because for all this impatiently moving, I had a reason that due 2 the bad debits that my family has in various banks. We have 2 make huge money for the interest itself every year. So I wished 2 overcome all this problems all of a sudden by getting a job abroad. Any way now I learned a lesson that we can鈥檛 make money with out a good profession or well education. So now I wish 2 try once more in those fields. Now I have decided 2 leave my family in a crisis by selling our home instead of bearing those bad debits & interests (only for a small period-after I got a good job can鈥檛 I replant them 2 an own house from a rent house?) Here is I need Ur helps 2 lead me in 2 light.
What I need 2 study now? Should I continue my BA? 2 tell U frankly now I have interest in neither education nor Photography & Photoshop but in computers.
Before U answer me 2 the question that 鈥渃an I become a software engineer or even a computer operator鈥? U may need 2 know my stand in computers. I came 2 know about computers during my Photographical studies. Then itself I had too much interest in short cut keys. If so now I have a good speed 2 do any kind of program even without mouse. I mean that even though I see a program that I haven鈥檛 seen in my life before soon I will be able 2 understand this is this & that. By this interest itself I could learn a lot of short cut keys as well as Commands. Now what I鈥檓 telling U that I am able 2 operate a system & all the common programs like MS office, excel, etc without a mouse. I clearly know that these things only are not a qualification 2 be a software engineer. Then what I鈥檓 asking U that 鈥渄o U believe I鈥檓 able 2 be an s/ware eng? If so what should I do? Or do U see any other field suitable for me? Or should I continue the job that I鈥檓 in now & try 2 solve the bank debits with this small salary & help my parents 2 not desert in 2 a rent house? Hurry pls advise me, I don鈥檛 know any thing what I should do

seek counseling both for professional and personal help.

you seem to have the aptitude to do almost anything , but lack the self esteem to move forward in any career path.

a perfectionist procrastinator perhaps?

save your money and move to Australia
Pretty long story huh?

Well for now, work hard to earn more money with your current job. Impress your boss.

While your doing that, look for a job with a bigger salary. Well, of course don't let your boss know. Just tell them if you're sure you'll be accepted on your next job.

With all those keyboard shortcuts in your resume, it shouldn't be hard for you to find another job.

Maybe you should write short stories and make it published.

Forget about enrolling classes for now, you are not in the situation to do so.

Focus on earning money. Help your family.

While doing those things, try to teach yourself programming. Maybe start with web design, I think that will link your ability to design and your communication skills --- and it will give you a gist of what programming really is.

You can even earn money as a web designer once you learn about that stuff. (PHP, Java Scripting, VBscripting, SQL, MySQL, etc.)

Visit http://w3schools.com for free tutorials and lessons.

Once you're efficient in web design, C++, J++, and other programming languages will be easy for you.

Don't forget to ask God for guidance. Study the Bible.