I'm so hopeless, would it still be wrong for me to commit suicide?

I've literally no friends & never had a boyfriend, i have hardly even speak to people, since I moved to Ireland from England in 2001. It's hard for me to talk to people as I am very shy & have anxiety attacks when I'm in social situations. the only people who ever wanted to be 'friends' with me were ones who wanted to use & humiliate me. Prospects of me meeting friends or a guy who likes me are minimal to non-existant. I'm a burden to my family, wasting time, energy & money, my doing this will save them having to deal with me in future. They'd be much better off without me. I'm ugly & overweight. I am 1/2 asian & 1/2 irish & feel racially inferior. I'm a highschool dropout, with no qualifications or job prospects as I've no experience either. Can't return to education as places are limited & I can't afford private college. I'm 19 & too young to avail of mature student options. I just hate myself so much. No-one would miss & this way I'd not be a burden on anyone. should I just do it?

Dear One...I have been there...almost committed suicide because my mind literally snapped like a rubber band that had been stretched too far...had not planned it...did not want to...God, if you please, made a house call so to speak & I came to my senses enough to lunge for the phone & call for help. Since that time I was in the hospital 14 times in 7 years. Finally, I met a doctor who put me on a combination of medicine that was right for me. I have not been in the hospital since...neither do I want to kill myself. I found out I am a manic-depressive...not a very happy thing to be...but with an excellent doctor & therapist, I am now in remission & stable...And I am able to tell others where I have been...that you can get better, feel better, & enjoy living.

I tell you this so that you will know that I know what it is like...that you, as I was, are in hell now...It is not a place where you are going...You are already there...I know that a lot of folks will disagree with me, but it is, oh so true. The task you have is to decide that you want help dealing with this...and then do it. I do not say that it will be easy...It will take time...but if you hang in there, it will be worth it. As the saying goes, When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on!!!

I know...I used to cling to the headboard of my bed, in desperation trying to get rid of this feeling that I wanted to run out the window of a 10 story building...horrible feeling. It is not a matter of hurt feelings...It is much deeper...So I repeat again, decide that you want help with this & then get it.

Irish/Asian has got to be beautiful...you CAN do it & then you can be a help & a blessing to other people who are going through what you are you are going through now.

Bye beautiful one...I will keep you in my prayers & send positive thoughts to you.

If by any chance, you would like to talk to me about it & have a friend, my email address is BJJML@AOL.COM, Please be sure to put something in the subject that will identify you so that I do not delete it. Would love to hear from you. With love...BJ Source(s): Very painful personal experience which I found could be over come.

wow i didn't give up that early in life! you're young, you're only 19! Wait at least 22 to have these thoughts!

no dont do it
You should see your doctor. He can prescribe Zoloft which will help you think more clearly. It will alleviate your depression and anxiety. Please make an appointment soon. Also know that it will take 4 weeks to feel the full effects of the medication so don't give up on it too soon.
Nah

get a job and go back to school. face your fears, don't hide from them.