What do i do with my life right now at this stage ?

im 30, have borderline personality disorder, ive lived alone for 2 years in a one bedroom flat on sickness pay.....because of my problems and condition ive never : made any friends in life : never had a partner or girlfriend ever : never been employed or gained qualifications ever..l..i have a mental health record to obviously & a minor criminal one.

my long term goal is to move to a quiet coastal village in europe or maybe back to southern france...where i could get an ok job and a nice girlfriend, a loving partner.

right now, i don't live in the greatest/ friendliest area of the uk.....ive lived alone for 2 years and im starting to feel lonely, alienated, abandoned, isolated by society....and obviously with no support network to turn to, except an aging ill mum...i have no one there for me.

im not keen on multiculturalism either & im seeing more of this in my area.
im thinking should i try run away and escape to a quiter area in a setup where i was living around others

so i wouldnt feel lonely or abandoned....but i dont know in
what area that place would be...or who i should approach or
how to get there.
obviously you need to have money to live in a nice area and
i dont have any because of my situation.

i know there are mental health charities that assist with
supported housing all over the country.

but after 2 years in my own flat, moving would be a big upeval
like walking into the unknown...

how would i get what little possessions i own to an area far away etc...

do i stay here, tough it out, work towards getting to europe?

or do i bolt because i feel the way i do ?

what do i do in the short term, anyone ?

All i can say is.. dun ever ever give up... do not quit.. try as u might no matter wat u do.. jz rmb to breathe.. its gonna be tough.. but jz rmb to breathe... alwiz think tat u can do it.. u can pull urself up... and rmb.. don't even think of giving up.. i cant advice u on anything that relates to moving and stuff... but all i can say is dun give up.. be strong and rmb.. God is alwiz with u.. if he shuts the door.. he'll leave a window open... May God bless u.. rmb do not give up!! and i'm sure all here at Yahoo! Answers are all behind u supporting u all the WAY!!!!

give up!

thats way too long for me to read but...u should sleep

Why don't you take up art and try selling it of in the streets for additional income. You never know someone might just buy the artwork and wah La. Instant millionaire. Oh well its a start.
Use your hands be creative and do something. You cant go any further down any more. The only option is now to go up. Try. Nothing to loose. You'll think of something. Good luck.

tuffen up cokk asian and maybe go look after ur sick mama.you have a major self pity problem.what if u were the only person left on earth what would u do then?take a few valuim and drink some hot tea then u will have the courage.

i think you're just afraid. you've got to face your fears. stop making excuses and go out into the world. you've already confessed your problems and issues, so do something about it. stop mooching off of the government and get a job. you'll develop people skills and get over your sad dislike of multiculturalism. i hope you know that there are more cultures in the world than just the british culture.
dont throw yourself a pity party. get into the world and raise your standards. it's sad to see people like you.
dont start small. throw yourself into the deep end and learn how to fight off sharks as well as swim.
dont let life pass you by. you've only got this one.

Are you in therapy for your Borderline Personality Disorder. If not, you should find out if your country has DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy). It has worked wonders for people over here in the U.S. It was developed by a woman named Marsha Linehan. Anyway, I would suggest seeing a psychologist if you are not or have stopped. You need to learn to cope and that particular therapy teaches coping skills so you don't have to feel lonely or alienated. I hope you find peace within yourself.

Contact you nearest mental health facility, I believe treatment is free in the U. K.. Believe me I am not being critical, you have a problem and need some assistance.
Cognative Restructuring. It will set you free, and you will be able to take responsibility, and start enjoying your life.

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Good Wishes