How can i get over that i can never emigrate to canada or australia ? i'm very depressed about it?

im 30, i have had a very rough life, alot of horrendous things happening. ive missed out on things like having relationships a girlfriend......making friends...getting an education, gaining qualifications...being employed.....missed out on all that.

spent most of my life suffering.

i live in a one bedroom apartment on welfare pay- i own hardly any possessions except an old computer.

my only goal in life left is to leave britain and move back to europe.....build a new life...a fresh start in a small coastal village...find a girlfriend, a job a new life, security, stability...things ive never had.

but i feel very depressed because from the situation im in it seems to impossible to get there, to reach the goals...it will take to long.

plus im even more depressed that because of my record/ history it is impossible for me to move outside europe to canada or australia.

i feel devastated about this- how do i come to terms with this ?

Some friends and I would like to live on the moon. I am now to old to do it but maybe my younger friends will make it.
You talk about living in a one-bedroom apartment and being on welfare, I have been there and done that. It has been so bad I had to decide on paying my light bill or eating. Everybody has problems, you suck it up and go on or you let life beat you.

You don't say why you can't make friends or have a gf where you are so it's hard to reply.

It is possible that you may have an unrealistic idea of what your life would be like in Canada or Australia. It is possible that you could change your life there but it is also possible for you to change where you are. It is also possible that your life would stay as it is in Canada or Australia.

just tell yourself that those are dumb and boring places to go anyway and you would never go there

have faith:):)

You're still very young. Try not to dwell on the past, there's always people out there in a worse position. It sounds like you already know what you want but it helps to write you're plan down. If you can't go to Australia or Canada maybe it's for the best. It also helps to tally up your resources, who do u know that can help you in anyway, advice, etc. but they may know other people too, who know people some may own business etc and are looking for help. Ask people who are successful how they got to where they are in life. Information is the most valuable resource. Sometimes strangers can offer the most help but they aren't strangers any more if you get to know them, just making conversation. Also Read as much as possible about how people have done things, overcome difficult situations, become successful etc....
good luck, don't give up