Was it cheating?

Ok well I have this bes guy buddy...and we both like each other. But somehow the timing is never quite right so we just kinda act like we're going out when we're not. When me and my last bf broke up I knew my buddy was going to ask me out but I had already promised this other guy (lets call him Bean) I would give him a chance & that kinda pissed buddy off. Now I'm in the relationship with Bean and I love him more than anything. Well there was a party this weekend and Buddy was there while Bean wasn't. We went walking through the woods in the dark and me and buddy kinda separated from the group and we were holding hands in his jeans pocket.. I wanted to take him right then && there so bad! Then later we were sittin next to each other on the sofa and he had his jacket on his lap and I sneaked my hand under there and started rubbing his leg awfully um... close. I could feel him getting hard and I knew I should stop but I cant help it.. was halfway givin a hand job cheating?

Of course - you shouldn't be doing anything like that with another man if your supposed to love with your boyfriend so much ! How would you feel if he did the same exact things that you did to another female?

I think it was. You were aware of what you were doing, and you know you wouldn't want your boyfriend to do anything like that to you.
Any sort of touching is cheating if it's not with your boyfriend.
You need to decide who you care for most, buddy or bean.
Don't string one or the other along, that's the worst thing you could do.
Spend time away from both of them until you gather your thoughts and make a decision.
Cheating for sure.

Next time leave him alone and go somewhere else. If you needed to do something go to the ladies room and take care of things for yourself or go to Bean's place and put a hurting on him.
I would say yeah. If you told that to "Bean", how would he take it. Or say your boyfriend was like this weekend I kninda touched this girl over the weekend. i don't think you like "Bean" as much as you think you do. Stand back and see what you really feel about the guy.
Yes. "I'm in the relationship with Bean and I love him more than anything." ('Cept when someone else is around...... ;-) )
i look at it like this. when i date someone i wont do anything i wouldnt want them to do. so if its ok for him to get hand job from a friend then its ok for you to give one.